Appearances

Tonight I had a moment...

A moment that I want to share...

First off I have not been the happiest camper lately,

I have been counting down the days until school will start,

almost as if I am waiting for my life to begin.

I have been focused on having peace and quiet in my home.

I have been dreaming of my house staying clean for more than 5 minutes,

and not hearing the constant tattle tailing and fighting.

I have been wishing this summer away in a mean way!

My life feels like a country song on a small scale to me right now!

Washer is leaking,

Ava was sick all week, and she is not a happy camper when she is sick.

Eric is out of town 2 or 3 nights a week! ( I miss my man!)

I have a toothache!

It is 110' out side we have major cabin fever, need I say more!

I have been throwing some major parties lately!

Pity parties that is!

Well back to my moment...

Tonight I decided to go get the boys some new shoes and backpacks for school.

Brexan is out of town so I only have 4 kiddos to take to the store,

so fun! (not)

We went to Ross and the boys found some shoes they liked,

Let me start by saying,

Bridger LOVES character stuff!

I have never had one this into characters before,

he loves spider man, the movie cars stuff, the gaudier the better!

He found some spider man shoes he wanted, and I immediately shot him down!

I have to be honest I so do not love character stuff!

Sorry if I offended you but that is just me!

Then we went to target and Bridger found a really horribly gaudy character shirt,

and it was about Brexan's size!

He wanted it,

I told him "NO way"

then he found one that was to small for him, but still gaudy!

I said again "NO way".

Then tonight I read Stephanies blog and was truly humbled as I always am,

I sat holding him in my arms, and looked into his sweet innocent eyes and thought,

why do I care so much if he wants to wear spider man stuff so much, am I so worried about

what the world will think of my four year old boy who loves spider man,

that I would withhold the pleasure of letting him wear what he loves???

I looked at him and said

"Buddy do you want those spider man shoes?"

His face lit up!

"Yes"

"Do you want that spider man shirt?"

"Yes"

( me with tears in my eyes)

"Tomorrow I am going to let you pick out what ever you want,

and you can even wear them on the first day of school!"

He was so excited,

and you know,

so am I,

I learned something tonight by realizing that it is more important to let my son be who he is,

and let him have a say in what he wants to wear, and what will make him happy!

Life is not about the way things look on the outside!

It is what is on the inside that counts!

I look forward to tomorrow taking my little boy back to the store,

and making his day by letting him get his spider man shirt, and shoes!

And I will beam with pride when he goes off to his first day of pre-school,

proud as punch in his prized spider man shirt and shoes!