I can do hard things

I am tired...
Tired of messes...
Tired of standing on my feet for hours... and sometimes until 1 am
Tired of wondering about our future
Tired of missing my kids
Tired of rolling silverware, and being at the bottom of the food chain at work
Tired of wearing all black ( to work )
Tired of my neck and back aching
OK enough complaining... maybe you are tired of reading already!
I find myself feeling like a ping pong ball in the middle of a game.
I get feeling down and tired and then...
I pick myself back up and refocus on my blessings and try with all my might to not focus on the bad. It is a constant up and down battle.

Life is tough! But you have to be tougher! ( I learned that from the song in land before time lol )
When I started work I hated it! I hated my trainer!
She was far from nice to me, and clearly enjoyed picking on the new girl!
I felt stupid and somewhat, no completely out of my element! On the last night of my training I really wanted to throw in the towel and QUIT! I had a table that even noticed that she was not treating me very nice, and complained to my manager.
Just the day before I had to go in to the bathroom at work and have a good cry from the frustration.

I am proud I stuck it out!

As I walked out to my car that last night of training. Exhausted both mentally, and physically I had the thought come to me " I can do hard things!"
I was a sub in Relief Society a month or so ago and I did my lesson on the talk given in the Oct. conference by Elaine Dalton. She talked about having a plate that had engraved on it " I can do hard things!" And in the end of her talk she said if she could now change that saying it would read " With the Lord I can do all things!" I am so thankful that little saying came to my mind in my time of weakness! I know that it was the Lord reminding me of my strength. Holding me up so to speak in my time of need. Sometimes answers come in ways we are not expecting.
I know that I can do this job.
I know that God is aware of me, and my challenges.
I know that with the Lord I can, and will do all things!
And I am thankful for the little reminder that night in my time of need that
" I can do hard things!"
And you know what...
So can you!